She looks like her own portrait shot for an advertising campaign of a cosmetic line. She looks like a living symbol of success, to a person who succeeds. Meeting with Demi Moore, a woman who is bravely trying to be perfect. And remains real.

I come to her house in Los Angeles, which she shares with her husband, actor and producer Aston Catcher, three daughters, three Chihua-hua, one mongrel, a nanny of the youngest daughter and a cook, which is generally “half-time”. There are huge windows in this house – here no one is afraid of bright straight light. And the hostess looks at me with a direct clear look. She has a strong -willed harmonious face with an expression of unbending directness. Straight shiny hair. Straight back. Demi Moore consists of clear lines, of intelligible verticals. It is not clear how old she is. It is so beautiful that quantitative characteristics do not matter.

She is beautiful, but now everything is fine with her. Her is constantly pleased with her husband, who, moreover, is 15 years younger than her. Her daughters do not upset her, the same charms. Cosmetics do not blur on it. She lives with brilliance – as the slogan of the cosmetic company requires whose face she became. Moore of the first of the actresses of the world insisted 12 million on a fee. She was married to Bruce Willis himself and proudly parted with this savior of the world. Refused to get old and did not get old.

Recently, it is hopelessly, unbearably glossy-glamorn. And this glamor is like sugar glaze. Glamor’s sugary and sticky barrier separates it from me, a mortal dugout, which has gray hair, wrinkles, and conflicts.

But I feel, if this obstacle is overcome, then on the other side I will be met by an interesting person who claims: “Many people like me to consider me a bitch, because because of me they doubted themselves”.

A brave woman who was not afraid to star for the cover of a magazine naked in the seventh month of pregnancy.

The wounded pride, manifested in a bitter statement: «In our society, it is still believed that, stripping for shooting, you lose moral foundations».

An original nature. Pride without warning. Sensual mind.

I am striving for this woman.

Psychologies: It seems that you used to be much more conflict

. They undressed on the air of the television show, demonstrating that it was thin enough for the role. Received the nickname Gimme More («Give me more». – approx. Ed.) – for his struggle for fees. Starred naked for covers. And at the same time provocatively painted a male suit on their body. Selected journalists. And now – glossy sweetness, as if you are actually a diva from billboards, walking advertising «luxury products».

Demmy Moor: Don’t tell me, reporters from me and now gets. Recently, one of your colleague asked how I manage to be such a «liver» at my age. And I answered accordingly. She said that there are a lot of ways to achieve happiness, but the only true one is to recognize yourself. And what, among other things, it helps to become the owner of a million bank account and 29-year-old boyfriend.

So you recognized yourself?

D. M.: Yes, but the main thing here is not to be afraid to admit to yourself what is important to you and what is not. The result of such an analysis sometimes scares. But he builds your genuine priority system. The conclusions that I came to forced me to make extraordinary decisions.

You mean your departure from Hollywood, the cessation of a career at her peak, at 34 years old?

D. M.: Yes it is. Then, in 1996, I received several strokes of the way-from loved ones, from distant people, from colleagues, from critics. I felt incomprehensible. And could not explain. I know that the relationship finds out that they become clear. But I don’t know how, I do not own tools. And most importantly – girls, daughters. They lived under the fowls. My failures, our nervousness with Bruce, the hot environment around. All this would inevitably deform them. And we decided to move to Aidaho, to the ranch under the town of Haley. You see, then I suddenly realized: I had parents who were not very present in my life. My brother and I had to bear responsibility too early for ourselves. And so I wanted my children to remain children as long as possible, grow without. deformations.

You do not agree with the common opinion that one who has no full family in childhood cannot create his own?

D. M.: I never believed that everything is so linearly primitive in life. Yes, I had alcoholics parents. Yes, the person I considered my father, in fact, was not for them, and my real father left the family when my mother only waited for me. Yes, the one I considered my father committed suicide when I was only 18. Yes, we moved all my childhood, sometimes we lived in a trailer, and you know, in our States this is a sign of complete social fall. But all this only developed in me the desire to have my own family. And then, I had an amazing grandmother. She worked alone in the family, one raised four daughters, and this is at a time when there were very few jobs for women in America! No, the past does not set the future. They are simply trying to explain the present. Human’s own inclinations are much more important. For example, here I have a very strong maternal instinct. I am completely unconsciously in my life, I am proportioning with my daughters, with their benefit. Whatever I do, it makes sense only if it benefits my family. She is the main thing. But the family is also an anchor, that which prevents you from breaking and perish in the stormy sea. When Joel Schumacher put me out of the set of “Lights of St. Elm” for alcohol and cocaine and demanded that I go through the course of treatment, he was absolutely right. But then if I have children, nothing like this would have happened. I know this to myself now.